Tomorrow we are to be at the hospital at 6:30 a.m., which is much earlier than we had to be there for the other surgeries. Hopefully this means that the surgery itself will also be earlier. To be honest, we just want to get this thing over with. Niklas has been doing very well up to this point, and it’s really hard for us to put him through surgery when nothing is outwardly wrong with him. We are doing this so that the ultrasound looks better and to avoid any issues in the future that this “pocket of fluid” may cause.
Niklas will be undergoing his fourth brain surgery in just 10 months which, when I think about it, seems absolutely terrible. The truth is, Niklas has been an absolute joy and surprise to us this whole time. He has kept up with, and in some areas surpassed, Gabbie and Lukas developmentally. He is such an incredibly happy baby who will always smile back at you, even when he is not feeling well.
One of the toughest things for me is that Niklas has much more of a personality now than he did back on the first surgery. Then, he really didn’t know what was going on and we just wanted our baby fixed and home. Now, he is much more cognizant of what is going on and will probably be somewhat scared. We know that this is for the best, but please pray for us that all goes well tomorrow.