Today started like any other day. I woke up feeling good, went to work, had a good day, and left for the NICU excited to see my babies. As soon as I entered the hospital, all of my energy drained from my body. I felt as if I hadn't slept in days, and suddenly felt like this whole experience was never going to end. When I arrived in the nursery, Greta informed me that Niklas had his brain scan and his ventricles increased slightly. This is not that big of deal, it just makes the possiblility that Niklas will need a shunt that much stronger. We did expect all along for the shunt to be necessary, but it's just one of those days. Lukas also had a colder temperature when I got there, so we put on one of Connie's home made knitted hats and that seemed to rectify the situation. Lukas received his feeding through the tube tonight, and I couldn't help but think that tube feeding seems like a long way from going home. Niklas finished about half of his bottle before getting tired and needing to be tube fed the rest. All in all it was an okay day, but all of these little things on top of it being a burnout Monday made it seem worse than it was. Yesterday we were able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but today the exhaustion of this journey set in. I have a feeling that a good night's sleep will fix a lot of things. The picture here is of Niklas with a little bandage on his head. Each day the doctors stick a needle into the reservoir that was placed beneath his scalp and draw out 8cc's of cerebral fluid. Afterwards, they put him in this elevated crib for about an hour until the little hole seals back up. The other picture is of Lukas and I.